I Think My Anxiety Has Finally Caught Up With Me

I woke from a dream this morning that has left me both shaken and reassured.

A storm had blown into town. It was one of those once-in-a-century things (much like the storm that hit Phoenix a year ago in August). The sky was dark. I mean dark. It hadn’t started raining yet, but the wind was whipping about, and that was pretty bad in and of itself. Ben and I were sitting in the living room when all of a sudden we heard a tremendous thud on the roof.

I went outside. The wind had died down and it was eerily quiet. The darkness was now punctuated by a ray of sunlight coming from a break in the clouds, hitting squarely on our yard, allowing me to clearly see survey what had happened. The first thing I noticed were the rivers of what at first thought was water pouring off the eaves of the house. It looked like rain, but on closer examination it was actually dirt. That’s weird, I thought. I then stepped off the porch and looked around. The tree out front was stripped of its leaves and branches; there was debris everywhere. Then I looked up.

There were a lot of shingles missing from the roof. “Nothing that can’t be repaired,” I thought. But then as turned my head the source of the tremendous thud was apparent: there was now a huge, 15-foot side hole in middle of the roof, and the edge of a pallet full of rolled sod was now sitting where that part of the roof used to be.

It could only have been a tornado, I thought.

“Ben!” I yelled, “Come here!”

Ben came out and looked and the damage. I swear I’d never seen him so frightened in my life; the color completely drained from his face. At the same time my thought was, “Nothing inside was damaged. We and the dogs are all safe. The hole can be covered with a tarp until it can be repaired. And most importantly, our landlords (who live right next door but whose home seemed undamaged) have insurance on this place.

“We need to go next door,” I said. Ben motioned for me to stay put, and as he started walking over there, he fell to the ground on all fours and started wretching.

I came away from this dream with several insights. Yes, a storm is coming. There will be damage, but Ben and I will survive. And most importantly, there are people out there who will have our backs.


Also Timely

This is not America, (sha la la la la)

A little piece of you
The little peace in me
Will die (This is not a miracle)
For this is not America
Blossom fails to bloom this season
Promise not to stare
Too long (This is not America)
For this is not the miracle

There was a time
A storm that blew so pure
For this could be the biggest sky
And I could have the faintest idea

For this is not America
(Sha la la la la, sha la la la la, sha la la la la)
This is not America, no
This is not, (sha la la la la)

Snowman melting from the inside
Falcon spirals to the ground
(This could be the biggest sky)
So bloody red, tomorrow’s clouds

A little piece of you
The little peace in me
Will die (This could be a miracle)
For this is not America

There was a time
A wind that blew so young
For this could be the biggest sky
And I could have the faintest idea

For this is not America
(Sha la la la la, sha la la la la, sha la la la la)
This is not America, no
This is not, (sha la la la)

This is not America, no
This is not
This is not America, no
This is not, (sha la la la)


“Saturday Night Live” nailed the elegiac mood of the week last night when Kate McKinnon sidestepped any jokes about election night and Hillary Clinton’s loss. Dressed in her Clinton white pantsuit and wig, she sat down at the piano and played “Hallelujah” in memory of the great Leonard Cohen, who died earlier this week. Watch the performance and try to keep your eyes dry. We dare you.

You Call Me A Liberal?

Liberals got women the right to vote. Liberals got African-Americans the right to vote. Liberals created Social Security and lifted millions of elderly people out of poverty. Liberals ended segregation. Liberals passed the Voting Rights Act, liberals created Medicare. Liberals passed the Clean Air Act, and the Clean Water Act. What did Conservatives do? They opposed every one of these programs. Every one. So when you try to hurl that label at my feet, ‘liberal’ as if it were something to be ashamed of, something dirty, something to run away from, it won’t work. Because I will pick up that label and I will wear it as a badge of honor.” ~ Congressman Santos, The West Wing, 2005


Having lived—and blog-bitched my way through—eight long years of Bush/Cheney fucking this country over, none of that ever prepared me for the absolute sociopathic evil I’m seeing spew from Donald Trump and his cloven-hooved—I can’t think of a better word (and apologies to the cute little yellow guys everywhere)—minions.

Just when you think Hair Fuhrer can’t sink any lower, can’t say one more outrageous thing that leaves anyone sane asking “Da FUCK did I just hear?” he does. Today it was the very treasonous pronouncement from the orange one: “Russia, if you’re listening, I hope you’re able to find the 30,000 emails that are missing. I think you will probably be rewarded mightily by our press.”

Of course he and his bobble-head spokespeople and followers now claim that no such thing was ever said; that in no way was he advocating a foreign power interfere in the U.S. political process by spying on his opponent. Even though it’s recorded right there for everyone to see.

To be clear, as an Atheist, I no more believe in the AntiChrist than I do in the rest of the Christian mythology, but damn if Trump isn’t looking more and more exactly like how followers of it say he’ll manifest. That doesn’t scare me nearly as much as the absolutely fascist turn the republican party—led by Trump—has taken, and how if he and his cronies somehow manage to gain control of this country it’s GAME OVER, not only for people of color, immigrants, progressives, LGBT, and pretty much anyone the human Cheeto doesn’t like, but also I dare say any part of what this country has always stood for.

We don’t need supernatural entities or extraterrestrial lizards wearing human skin suits to bring evil to this world; man is quite capable of manifesting it himself without any outside assistance.

Bush/Cheney scared me, but it now seems benign in comparison to the thought of a Trump presidency. That absolutely terrifies me—as it should for any person who has an ounce of compassion and empathy for his fellow man. This pathological liar and obvious sociopath with control of the nuclear codes? The ability to potentially appoint three supreme court justices? And with Mike Pence as Vice President, who would potentially step up in case Trump is removed from office?

We cannot allow this to happen. The results at the voting booth in November must be decisive and without question. As much as I would’ve preferred Bernie Sanders to receive the Democratic nomination, I am a realist and know that Hillary—with all her flaws, shortcomings, and baggagemust be elected president. Trump—and the resurrected Nazi Party he’s spawning—must be stomped into the ground.


At this point I don’t really give a shit about what “the left” wants this election. All this “Hillary isn’t doing exactly what I want her to do so I’m gonna be sad and angry man and I’m not gonna vote cause THE SYSTEM IS SO CORRUPT MAN” shit is so insanely juvenile.

This ain’t 1968, man. The Democratic Party’s platform is the most liberal that it has ever been but I guess the actual substance is too “boring” for some. Some so-called “liberals” are taking this election and this moment in time for granted. Damn shame. Real damn shame. Yeah, you don’t like Hillary because she’s too “detached” and Tim Kaine because he’s “boring.” God, it reminds of the 2004 election when people were like “Yeah, John Kerry is a smart guy but he’s so boring.” Get over it. Why do some of ya’ll need to be constantly cuddled and cajoled into voting? Voting is a civic duty. People marched and died and bled for the right to vote and so many “progressives” are so quick to piss it all away because the Democratic ticket isn’t “exciting” enough for them. It’s all style and no substance for some. DAMN. SHAME.


Quote of the Day

Plus ça change, plus c’est la même chose…

“But let’s get serious, let’s get journalistic for one second: fuck this evil lying fuckstick coward, his evil lying fucking press conference, his evil lying fucking lobby, and every expensive fucking car their whole flock of fucksticks fucked in on. “It’s literally everyone’s fault except ours,” says this useless foreskin of a person, this mass child-murderer by proxy, sanctimoniously lecturing all of us about “responsibility” with such mind-boggling gutless hypocrisy that it makes you want to peel your entire skin off and mail it to him with the middle finger propped upright forever. “Every school in America should have an armed guard, duh huh hruur rfugnh. [Finger guns, dancing].” –This motherfucker, this fungus on the taint of America, who is either the dumbest ignorant sack of pus who ever lived OR the literal devil. “The only thing that stops a bad guy with a gun is a good guy with a gun,” says this amoral piece of turd, neatly sidestepping “or not giving the bad guy a fucking SEMIAUTOMATIC ASSAULT WEAPON.” This mercenary limpdick fuck. This sandwich bag of dog shit. Fuck Wayne LaPierre. Fuck this evil, evil fucking person.” ~ Sashayed, who posted this wonderful rant in 2012!

I Would Never Wish Anyone Dead…

…but I will take great glee in reading certain obituaries.

Hey Dan, DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND THE SEPARATION OF CHURCH AND STATE? Do you not understand that it is not acceptable for you to be espousing your particular brand of batshit insanity publicly as an elected official?

There are days I really wish I believed in Hell, because no one is more deserving than you, Dan, to wake up there.

P.S. The Internet is forever. Just because you deleted the above tweet after the Internet blew up in your pathetic fucking Dominionist scumbag face doesn’t make it go away.


From The Rogue Columnist:

Is perpetual war inevitable?

In an otherwise interesting essay entitled, “The Price of Perpetual War,” we find this perplexing paragraph:

The United States did not choose this era of perpetual war. It is the price of living in a world where, for the first time, terrorist groups and malevolent individuals can reach the United States and wreak havoc from virtually any corner of the world. That threat was literally brought home by al Qaeda on 9/11 and reinforced all too recently by the terror attacks in Paris, Brussels, and San Bernardino.

Does anyone believe this is so? Alas, millions of Americans. But to make a quick list…

…We chose to give a blank check to Saudi Arabia to run one of the world’s most repressive regimes while spreading extremist war-on-the-infidels Islam throughout the Middle East and beyond. One doesn’t have to subscribe to conspiracy theories to acknowledge that Osama bin Laden and 15 of the 19 hijackers on 9/11 were Saudi citizens. And what has our kowtowing to the kingdom given us? The House of Saud’s oil, to fuel our “non-negotiable” (and already heavily subsidized) car-based sprawl lifestyle. Most oil needs to stay in the ground if we are to avoid destroying the planet even more—and between “making different arrangements” and domestic oil, we don’t need OPEC anymore…

…We chose an even closer connection to Israel, Riyadh’s quiet ally, whether this was in America’s national interest or not. And with the oppressive and increasingly extremist regime of Benjamin Netanyahu is it increasingly not. Indeed, increasing Jewish settlements on Palestinian land and injustices against the Palestinian people committed by Israel blow back on the United States, which has long ago lost its credibility as an honest broker in the Middle East. It has inflamed Islamic and Arabic anger against us. And for what? To please the powerful donors of AIPAC and older Jewish voters in the swing state of Florida?…

…We chose to invade Iraq, a nation that had nothing to do with 9/11 terrorism nor did it possess weapons of mass destruction. In toppling a distasteful but secular strongman, we unleashed the furies of sectarian strife going back to the death of Muhammad in 632. Our stupendously bungled occupation (Don “Stuff Happens” Rumsfeld, Paul Bremer) made it much worse; ISIS can be traced to these critical early blunders. The conflagration has spread throughout the region. And for what? To validate the Project for a New American Century, secret Cheney oil deals, and show how “The Vulcans” made their own reality? Real reality had other plans and millions blame America for the blood of the Iraqi people and a “war on Islam.” This was done in our name. We did this…

…We chose to antagonize Russia, first by expanding NATO into the former Warsaw Pact countries — despite strong evidence this violated a 1990 promise made to Moscow. We continued to do so by supporting the EU’s reckless attempt to embrace Ukraine, which had been part of the Russian Empire for centuries, then enacting sanctions against Moscow for annexing Crimea, which had never been historically part of Ukraine. We choose to ignore Russian exceptionalism. To wealthy Republican John Sidney McCain III, the land of Tolstoy and Tchaikovsky, whose people conquered a continent and crossed to take Alaska, is “a gas station masquerading as a country.” And for what? To keep the Military Industrial Complex well funded? Our actions have stoked Russian nationalism and taken the heat off [the real-estate developer’s] bromance object, Vladimir Putin…

…We choose to maintain an alliance system left over from the Cold War without even a peep of reflection. Uncle Sucker is left holding the bag. Why is the Middle East our problem rather than that of our NATO allies, who won’t even spend the minimum on their own defense? Why does British Prime Minister David Cameron get to eviscerate the Royal Navy yet profit from global commerce protected by the U.S. Navy? And he is only one free-rider. Why is North Korea our problem and not that of Beijing? Perhaps it’s better to have Japan under the American nuclear umbrella than having Tokyo develop its own nukes. But is George Kennan’s containment theory, specific to the Soviet Union, really applicable to China? Who benefits? The arms makers — America is the world’s largest exporter of military hardware. But who named us world police?

No, perpetual war in not inevitable. And the choice is not between the status quo and Charles Lindbergh-style isolationism.

The opportunity costs of our choices are enormous and mounting. Not least among our choices has been the GOP religion of tax cuts. Now our National Parks face a maintenance backlog of $11.5 billion. They must compete in an “American Idol-style” contest for a pittance of private grants. While every advanced, urbanized nation on the planet has high-speed rail (good for the climate too, vs. passenger jets), Amtrak struggles with a minimal network and most speeds lower than a century ago. The GOP response is to attempt to kill its inadequate $1.4 billion subsidy. The F-35 Joint Strike Fighter program, producing an unreliable jet, has cost $1.5 trillion. (Our subsidies of sprawl and single-occupancy automobiles would amount to many trillions).

But to hell with addressing climate change, building 21st century infrastructure, protecting the people’s priceless natural inheritance, or even funding real defense needs and attending to legitimate national interests. The GOP can’t keep cutting taxes and fretting over debt and deficits — and also continue massive military spending. The fretting over red ink will stop the minute a Republican becomes president. And as for the rest? Stuff happens.

Think about that when you make a choice in November, not just for the White House but every race from city council on up.


And of course, Michelle Gregg is a Christianist who refuses to accept any responsibility for her lack of attentiveness saying only, “God protected my child until the authorities were able to get to him…Accidents happen.”


If your invisible-friend-in-the-sky really wanted to protect your spawn, perhaps he/she/it wouldn’t have let the child into the enclosure in the first place.